T E A R S

They say memories are golden,
Well, maybe that is true;
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.

A million times I needed you,
A million times I cried;
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still;
In my heart you hold a piece
No one could ever fill.

But now I know you want me
To mourn for you no more,
To remember the happy times
Life still has much in store.

Since you'll never be forgotten
I pledge to you today;
A hallowed place within my heart
Is where you'll always stay.

If tears could build a stairway
And heartache make a lane;
I'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you back again.

Our friendship chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same;
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

I've been awake for days- I can't sleep

The thought of losing you; Cuts me deep

My heart is crying out for you

Will I have- to come home to?

I need you here.

Right now I'm living in my darkest fear,

My head hurts- I can't stop the ringing in my ear.

It's feels like I'm crying blood instead of tears,

What the hell is happening to me- after all these years?

Can't count the tears; There's too many.

I need to feel love. Do you still have any?

I'm dead inside- I don't wanna breathe.

I can't stop you; If you want to leave.

All I feel is the pain,

Somehow it brings comfort to my brain.

I don't want to go on without you,

I don't know what to do.

There's a hole in my heart- A sharp pain in my head.

Something is missing inside; I feel like I'm dead.

Kiss away my hurt, remove my fear,

I don't know why I need you here.

Here comes that same old familiar pain, again.

I'm too dead to live, too alive to die,

All I ever seem to ask is "why?"; God, why?

My whole life seems like it's crashing down,

How can someone live with their heart torn out?

Please! Someone out there come save me.

Have I finally- Gone crazy?

Here I am broken, fragile- but still a man.

I've fought for life for so long; I'm dead right where I stand.

God, please don't leave me like this!

I need you to be here; someone answer my wish.

Take away the fears- I have inside,

Can't count the tears- God knows that I have tried.

I'm wounded- I can't walk

I can't call out to you; We don't talk,

I've beg you not to leave,

When I'm gone don't grieve.

I can't sleep- I wish I could die.

I can't live in this emotional suicide.

It's hard to fight for what I can't see,

I need to learn to just believe.

I'm empty and it's something I can no longer hide,

Can't count the tears- That have yet to be cried.

Before I accepted  
The life of aspiration,
My tears were the tears
Of real sorrow.
Now that I have accepted
The life of aspiration,
My tears are not tears of sorrow
But tears of real joy.

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